The Anxiety and Worry....

It's lessened...It actually went away completely for a while but it's creeping back in. I know that our lives are forever changed, in mostly positive ways, and I have to accept it. I have to move forward and believe that in time life will be back to the way it was....by that I mean in our own house and not stressed about money. Mr. Fun says he never wants to go back to what he was doing but part of me really wishes he did. So I struggle with that. I also struggle with knowing I HAVE to get my business going again. it's harder than I remember and it seems everything is taking me longer than it should. Oh and there is the fact that I hate the phone. I need to get over that. Too bad I couldn't just text all my clients, all of the time. I am designing new cards but it's slow going and I always feel something is off...HELP!
One thing that keeps me going is my kids are happy here, well the girl is happier here than in that other city. Also hearing my friends say Mr. Fun seems really happy makes me believe this is the right thing. I still have my moments of what if, usually as I am sending the kids to get snacks from under my bed. What? doesn't everyone store their fruit leathers under their bed? NO? Space is tight and I am okay with that, I am extremely grateful to be living where we do. I am just worried that the Schleps are going to want their house back before we are ready to move on. They have reassured me that isn't the case but there is 6 of us, that is an extreme amount of people to welcome into your home for an extended amount of time.
So what I am saying is I believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow and we are going to find it. It just may take longer than I want.