I wrote this post. Today I ran across this video and I am floored..I am so floored I watched it twice. I will probably watch it again.
My favorite points... When you feel jealousy you have needs that aren't being met. <-----I didn't realize that this is what it was until I watched this video. I am seriously blown away by this video.
People shove it down and pretend it's not there, which means when it comes for you it clobbers you.<--------And it did. It clobbered me, alright. It knocked me straight to the ground.
When you're being made to feel special along with your other needs being fulfilled it's rare that you would ever get jealous. <------- LIGHTBULB! I have never not had my other needs being fulfilled. I had my friends, I had my mommy conversations, I had afternoon cocktails by the pool, I was working out, I had photography gigs.....then we moved here. I lost all that. It came to a screeching halt. Mr. Fun started a new job, a promotion...he was busy settling in, it was a little stressful...stopping here to say I am not putting blame on him, at all. I don't want it to come off like that. I have survived many holiday seasons of retail and him being exhausted and focused on work and never once felt the way I did after moving here. It was throwing the other things I was missing in there on top of it that made my jealousy rear it's ugly head. Just ask Mr. Fun and he'll tell you, I was insane. My head was so far gone. I'm lucky to have Mr. Fun that took the time to pull me back in. Just last night he played this song over and over as he sang to me......that helped...a lot.
Jealousy just becomes a little blinking light. <----- this...I am learning when I am feeling vulnerable and need more Mr. Fun time I need to speak up and not bury it. I need to tell him, not hold it in until I have lost my mind about it. I had just never felt what I was feeling before. I am not a jealous person. But hearing about his lunches out, his time on the river, his business trip that was hosted at a casino...I lost it. Had I had mommy friends, girl time, afternoon cocktails or photography gigs none of this would have bothered me. Those were all my blinking lights that I didn't recognize until it was too late and I went insane.
Go watch this video. It seriously has opened my mind to what I was going through after the move and I understand why I was acting the way I was so much more now.
My favorite points... When you feel jealousy you have needs that aren't being met. <-----I didn't realize that this is what it was until I watched this video. I am seriously blown away by this video.
People shove it down and pretend it's not there, which means when it comes for you it clobbers you.<--------And it did. It clobbered me, alright. It knocked me straight to the ground.
When you're being made to feel special along with your other needs being fulfilled it's rare that you would ever get jealous. <------- LIGHTBULB! I have never not had my other needs being fulfilled. I had my friends, I had my mommy conversations, I had afternoon cocktails by the pool, I was working out, I had photography gigs.....then we moved here. I lost all that. It came to a screeching halt. Mr. Fun started a new job, a promotion...he was busy settling in, it was a little stressful...stopping here to say I am not putting blame on him, at all. I don't want it to come off like that. I have survived many holiday seasons of retail and him being exhausted and focused on work and never once felt the way I did after moving here. It was throwing the other things I was missing in there on top of it that made my jealousy rear it's ugly head. Just ask Mr. Fun and he'll tell you, I was insane. My head was so far gone. I'm lucky to have Mr. Fun that took the time to pull me back in. Just last night he played this song over and over as he sang to me......that helped...a lot.
Jealousy just becomes a little blinking light. <----- this...I am learning when I am feeling vulnerable and need more Mr. Fun time I need to speak up and not bury it. I need to tell him, not hold it in until I have lost my mind about it. I had just never felt what I was feeling before. I am not a jealous person. But hearing about his lunches out, his time on the river, his business trip that was hosted at a casino...I lost it. Had I had mommy friends, girl time, afternoon cocktails or photography gigs none of this would have bothered me. Those were all my blinking lights that I didn't recognize until it was too late and I went insane.
Go watch this video. It seriously has opened my mind to what I was going through after the move and I understand why I was acting the way I was so much more now.
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